My take on God

My relationship with God was mostly one of fear and constant pressure to always do the "right" thing to avoid being thrown in hell on judgment day. I saw God as this big man in the sky that was always looking down on me ,judging my every move. Well it's safe to say that my relationship with God was just unhealthy and fear based. I formed this distorted image of God at a very young age and grew up believing that that's who "he" is. I'm not sure if that's how my church potrayed God or if it's just how I interpreted the information I was given.

When I began my spiritual journey, I was so afraid of letting go of what or who I thought God was to me. I was so scared that if I were to let go of that idea then I'd be lost not knowing what to believe in, and that's exactly what happened when I did. At first everything was just confusing to a point where I was convinced that there was actually no God. At this point I was just a huge mess with no direction.

A couple of weeks went by and I continued to grow and so did my relationship with God. I started to question God's true form and was able to create a better image of who God is to ME.
God is not a physical being that posses physical properties such as gender,colour, shape ,size nor age. God is not religion. God is a divine energy source that creates phenomenal beauty. God allows me to be me and trusts me enough to make my own decisions and learn from my mistakes without judgment. God is all around me. God is within me and I am directly connected to God at all times. God is protection. God is kindness. God is peace. God is love.

P.S These are just my experiences and not an attempt to change anyone's views on anything ❤